Eating lunch in my high school bathroom stall…

By Grover Koelpin 78 comments


Hi! My name is Kristine and when I was in high school, I was that one kid who never spoke in class. I would occasionally say hi to other students while passing periods but for the most part I hung out with a new friend every year and my real best friend was myself. Some might call it social anxiety or isolation, but for me, I found comfort in keeping my own thoughts in my own head. The bathroom stall was my haven, but at some point it also became my prison. So today I am going to high school. By the way, I am not in high school. I am 22 and graduated but the reason why I’m going back today is because I wanted to experience what I used to do. My biggest regret in life is high school. Whenever people ask me I always look back on that time and I kind of just have this *UGH* of regret. And in high school I was like the president of Anti Social Social Club. Yeah, I just never felt like I fit into any specific group. I felt like I didn’t belong with the popular kids or the very studious kids. I just didn’t know where I belonged and because of that I was kind of scared to reach out and make friends. And honestly I didn’t even put in any effort into doing that. It was just something that I wish I could’ve stepped out of my comfort zone and just done. Okay, so I am fully aware of how unsanitary this seems and is but, this is- I’m here for it. It’s happening. I was also getting kind of self conscious about my loud cracker chewing but hopefully nobody cared to notice. Okay, so this is the point where I decided to take out my old iPod shuffle and I have a playlist of all the songs I used to listen to in high school so it was a major throwback to be listening to all these nostalgic songs and I wasn’t expecting to be so emotionally connected to these songs but… yeah I would usually just chill and listen to music or distract myself with some Dragonville or Candy Crush. And sometimes, most of the time actually, I would be finishing up homework or studying for a test not because I was a nerd but mostly because I was a major procrastinator. I just kind of wanted to wrap up what just happened because… what did just happen? I don’t know! Okay, I’m really hot. Ooooh sorry if you hear the AC. I just ate Lunchables in my high school bathroom stall. It was just so normal, it was very chill, it was very um – I didn’t mind it. Like that wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be. I had this moment where I looked underneath the stall and I saw a girl. She had her shoes crossed over and she looked like she was just chilling in the stall. There was like nobody else in the bathroom and she was the for the whole entire rest of the lunch period. And I was thinking “Oh my goodness, she is probably in the bathroom stall just doing nothing like what I used to do”. And that kind of broke my heart. That’s when it hit me that you’re either watching this video thinking “Wow, Kris you are a loser.” Or you’re thinking oh my goodness, that is me or that is what I used to do or maybe you relate to this in some weird way but eating lunch alone might be your reality and if it is there’s nothing wrong with that but at the same time if you’re doing it because you’re scared of making friends or you’re scared that people aren’t gonna like you or judge you then there’s nothing to be afraid of. I’m not making this video for you guys to have pity on me or anything because honestly I did not mind eating lunch by myself. That was not really the issue. The bathroom stall was actually my safe zone. It was like my comfort zone where I knew that nobody would judge me, nobody could see me, I could just hide from the world and I’m…safe. But now I’m just trying to get out of my safe zone of this bathroom stall, and I have expanded my comfort zone since then of course. But it’s still pretty restricted and I wanna challenge myself more often and i feel like even doing these videos is doing that. Thank you for watching my PSA for students who eat lunch alone. I didn’t technically eat lunch in the bathroom. Maybe that happened a few times but there would be times where I would spend break time in the bathroom stall alone or I would go to my art class and chill there or like the parking lot and just eat by myself. Otherwise, during lunch time starting my junior year I would just walk home and eat lunch at home and senior year, I ended all of my classes before lunch time anyways so… that’s crazy. I didn’t’t even have the opportunity to socialise. I tried to avoid social interactions by all means possible. And I know this is kind of like some humorous joke to be self deprecating and be anti social or whatever but it’s not a joke. Not that you have to have the pressure to have a bunch of friends but I was just way too comfortable being by myself and not that that’s a bad thing. So yeah, I was a loner in high school and I was a proud loner. Even now being a youtuber I feel like I don’t have like that community of friends. But yeah. Thank you for watching this video. I’m really happy that I have all of you guys as my friends now… kind of. If you ever see someone who looks lonely or down for whatever reason don’t be afraid to just go up to them and ask them how they’re doing. Not even strangers, even like you’re friends. You never know how they’re doing. Ask them if they’re doing okay, it’s as simple as that. I feel like we should all make the effort to learn more about the other person and I feel like I definitely did not make that effort in high school. I made the effort to avoid people in high school and that’s honestly kind of depressing in hindsight. Now, I get to just look back and laugh at myself so at least there’s that… Okay, I’m gonna go now… I love you guys and I’ll see you really soon. Mwah!

78 Comments

Aye Yo

Oct 10, 2019, 3:39 pm Reply

I spend my lunch period in the bathroom too

Aye Yo

Oct 10, 2019, 3:40 pm Reply

I’m literary in school in the bathroom rn I usually do this

Paula Vega Ibeas

Oct 10, 2019, 4:18 pm Reply

Thats me.

Unix Melxo

Oct 10, 2019, 7:23 pm Reply

U r old friends or bitches crys now cus u re perfct ✨💫🌸

Vlk Etto

Oct 10, 2019, 11:43 pm Reply

Why the stall walls so high and low 😭

shaz pat

Oct 10, 2019, 12:39 am Reply

It’s a more serious issue I used to similar like this but for me it wasn’t just a comfort place, I was bullied, I tried to make an effort of making friends. Friends would at times ditch wouldn’t know were they would be. Also no matter how hard I tried to make female friends or be nice they would just never stick with me or form a friendship. Which really sucks I mean I’m 22 now so I just see this as my past now.

Kali

Oct 10, 2019, 12:44 am Reply

I was the same way in high school but instead of hiding in the bathroom during lunch I would go to the library and do homework/study or just act like I was super busy.

nova

Oct 10, 2019, 1:44 am Reply

lol it’s funny that this is like a funny youtube video idea when like i actually used to have to do this

Karin Adriana

Oct 10, 2019, 2:34 am Reply

I never did this but bathroom definitely my place to cry than I have to cry in front of people.

retrobratz

Oct 10, 2019, 3:08 am Reply

kristi: my best friend was myself

me: yea me too, but also my worst enemy 🙂

Talking Cracker

Oct 10, 2019, 5:24 am Reply

Aw. I had a group of friends but I had to push myself to ACTUALLY make them. Unfortunately, they weren't the best so some days I would make the excuse I had to study and just chill and watch movies in the library or on the floor in a hallway. I never really ate lunch, but mostly due to the fact I was simultaneously suffering from an eating disorder along with anxiety (particularly social anxiety) & toxic friendships. Junior year was the peak of my eating disorder and senior year was the peak of my anxiety and depressive mentality due to my dad being diagnosed with cancer to later die that summer (last summer). It's all recent in my head as I'm a college freshman right now. Like stated in the movie "You Again" by Jamie Lee Curtis, no one gets through highcschool unscathed. It's tough to see others struggling, particularly with social anxiety and though we sometimes feel more alone surrounded by people than we do by ourselves, being left without true friends is still lonesome. I hope you have some lovely friends now who you can depend on! I'm still searching for mine 🙂

Izzy Tinnion

Oct 10, 2019, 11:51 am Reply

My school lunch hall isn’t much different

Sanane Sanane

Oct 10, 2019, 1:14 pm Reply

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Mia Redmond

Oct 10, 2019, 5:46 pm Reply

Ppl choose to do thhiiiissss.. Dont pitty just pray for them

Isabely Fujii

Oct 10, 2019, 6:39 pm Reply

This actually feels close to home 😭

Sarah

Oct 10, 2019, 6:54 pm Reply

I though I was the only one in the world doing this, found out now that I was not

Olegzzplace

Oct 10, 2019, 6:59 pm Reply

This is kinda relatable in a way. Bc i go to a place, where you have to make homework after school. So when i am there. There are also other people. Who always talk with each other. Or when there a breaks. Everyone goes outside. And then am sitting alone, chilling on my phone. And no i do have friends. But it’s just so akward for me. To step up to people and say hi. Like 😂🥺

Helen Deng

Oct 10, 2019, 9:51 pm Reply

If I'm gonna eat lunch by myself, I sit in a corner, eat as fast as possible and escape haha

Luckily, Most of the time this is only for special occasions… it happens maybe once a week heh

Keira Yee

Nov 11, 2019, 3:06 am Reply

My parents moved where I am rn and ONLY cared about the education I am in hs rn but idc who likes me or not, if people think I’m alone or weird, and my friend group because I only go to school to learn and get these A’s gurl! And pretty soon I will be holding a diploma. Highschool will go by quick anyways I have my whole life anyways

sanyori tovalino

Nov 11, 2019, 4:21 am Reply

I do this sometimes at my university, I hope someday I can feel better. . .

kokochanloey

Nov 11, 2019, 11:13 am Reply

I'm currently in my last year of high school and I'm one of those people who do this very often…I definitely hate doing it, but to me it's slightly better than having to eat lunch on a table with 'friends' that pretty much ignore me except when they need me for something, like to help them with school work. I have extreme social anxiety and I'm a complete introvert so the whole concept of high school and having to spend 8+ hours a day with people is almost like one of my fears. Everyone in my year seems to fit in so well – they all have their own close friend groups while I'm just here sitting in the toilet. I can be happy at times, but these days I'll be crying at night praying the next day doesn't come, and then waking up the next day with a load of anxious thoughts. I don't know what to do 🙁 I have dark thoughts very often and don't see very much value in my life, but I'm also too scared to do anything…

lova

Nov 11, 2019, 11:57 am Reply

i wanna listen to your playlist man can u make a public spotify playlish

Sara bPereira

Nov 11, 2019, 3:20 pm Reply

She’s so pretty whut-

Leia Marancio

Nov 11, 2019, 3:37 pm Reply

i could never do that because my school only has one bathroom lmao what if someone needed to use it

Anaïs Hlk

Nov 11, 2019, 8:41 pm Reply

I do that every days because I don't have any friens

Emily Crystal

Nov 11, 2019, 8:59 pm Reply

I’m eating the same lunch able rn

Rosemary Silvergate

Nov 11, 2019, 9:57 pm Reply

I wish I was able to do this but it's not possible where I live…
It's not because I'm alone or bullied but I just feel like people don't care about me and think that I am annoying

lunar

Nov 11, 2019, 10:11 pm Reply

omg she sat on her hands and then ate her food with them whAt

harrypotter hcfshxcbjxc

Nov 11, 2019, 10:18 pm Reply

This is me whenever my bff is sick

sxftmekis

Nov 11, 2019, 10:29 pm Reply

im moving to the usa in two years i am so afraid, i don’t even speak english fluently and i’m kind of introvert, i think i’m gonna end like this 🕺

Lily diMonda

Nov 11, 2019, 10:43 pm Reply

ive had to do this a couple of times now. my tip is to bring ur lumchbox in w u so u have a trash holder and then u can toss it later

Diana Maldonado

Nov 11, 2019, 11:08 pm Reply

It’s making me sick thinking of her sitting on the public toilet in leggings and then sitting in her car and then probably in bed, not o mention the phone where everyone dumps their pads. 🤢🤢

fRAn CHeskA

Nov 11, 2019, 12:30 am Reply

Advice: fake it till u make it.

Alex Rosé

Nov 11, 2019, 12:31 am Reply

The problem for me isn't the people but it's what I'm eating and the fact that I don't like eating in front of people 💀

Kub Hawj

Nov 11, 2019, 12:42 am Reply

6:33 the way she just spins her pen is like woah, like are we not gonna talk about that

lauren w

Nov 11, 2019, 12:51 am Reply

i’m moving next year & am fully expecting to do this

김하나

Nov 11, 2019, 1:17 am Reply

STANKY FISH

Emo Gang

Nov 11, 2019, 2:15 am Reply

What it’s like to eat in a bathroom stall:
You sit on the toilet and eat. Really not that interesting.

Obvious Trends And more

Nov 11, 2019, 3:03 am Reply

I wouldn't say I have social anxiety but I don't like talking, I'm the mute girl in the corner. I'm feeling really helpless at the moment because I'm getting bullied and not standing up for myself, and I'm a girl and I'm being bullied by a boy (and don't try and say he just likes me) it's not fun being bullied by the opposite gender because I feel like they're meaner and make more nasty remarks about you. I'm not in highschool.

Nataly Naranjo

Nov 11, 2019, 3:16 am Reply

is your last name really soup?

Nataly Naranjo

Nov 11, 2019, 3:17 am Reply

yeah i don’t really eat lunch

Josselyn Rashford

Nov 11, 2019, 3:48 am Reply

I feel bad cause I’ve done this 😂

Bon Ricard

Nov 11, 2019, 4:17 am Reply

Same

chaeyoungs short hair

Nov 11, 2019, 5:13 am Reply

I’m in high school now but I remember in elementary (mainly 3,4, and 5th grade) I would go in the bathroom stall and cry because I had no friends, I was scared. The teachers thought I couldn’t talk, I skipped so much classes too go hide in the bathroom and this just brought me back. I sat there looking at the pretty girls laughing and giggling with their friends. I’m in high school now and I don’t have many friends.

Chasing Skies

Nov 11, 2019, 9:35 am Reply

Am I the only one who won’t sit on public toilets or even school toilets for that matter
(I usually just half squad)

Dicaprio

Nov 11, 2019, 11:28 am Reply

Im so glad i watched this video, i lost my friends throughout school so i spent many times in the bathroom. I liked being alone but I didn’t know anyone else who didn’t have friends to go to so i felt like a loser. This makes me not feel lonely anymore

awhnao

Nov 11, 2019, 12:01 pm Reply

i would fall in the toilet

april bam

Nov 11, 2019, 1:09 pm Reply

I'm only doing that because they might force me to eat hahhahaha ed things

Chaeyoung Chang

Nov 11, 2019, 1:47 pm Reply

Aren’t you afraid someone’s going to knock on your stall or poke their head over and see you? I am

Melanie Almonte

Nov 11, 2019, 3:38 pm Reply

Are we not gonna talk about how she put her phone on the tampon bin and she sat on the toilet with her pants without covering the seat

fizzyhirry ahmed

Nov 11, 2019, 3:40 pm Reply

At lunch time i just sit in class with my head down. I barely eat my lunch

eylül yazgan

Nov 11, 2019, 4:23 pm Reply

good you didn't eat bread or you'd get bumped 🤣 I’m serious be careful

Bloxburg Butterfly’s

Nov 11, 2019, 6:15 pm Reply

i feel like the bathroom is a place where i feel safe away from all the social anxiety and problems.

Skylar Otakupoper

Nov 11, 2019, 6:15 pm Reply

I hate myself idk how could I be my friend XD

Yvx友好

Nov 11, 2019, 7:17 pm Reply

Well i did eat my lunch in toilet too

Lila.

Nov 11, 2019, 8:20 pm Reply

ok this lowkey broke my heart

shahed bourguiba

Nov 11, 2019, 8:22 pm Reply

i do this when i have no one to hang out with

hellgirlfiona

Nov 11, 2019, 8:23 pm Reply

idk why but i started crying when i saw the pic where she drew the toilet in senior year…

Enrique Cerros

Nov 11, 2019, 8:27 pm Reply

Wow watching this brought back so many old memories. I was also the “loner” in high school, I literally only had 1 friend my freshman and sophomore year but they moved away and I was left alone my last 2 years. I would usually go to the library during lunch but sometimes it was closed and I was forced to go to the bathroom. The day I graduated was the happiest day of my life!

My social anxiety has improved so much and I have been able to make some great new friends. Always remember high school is temporary and there’s so much more to life. Do what makes you happy! You only live once after all. I’m currently pursuing modeling and have been fortunate to travel the world. I’m planning on taking some acting classes in a few months. The “popular kids” that peaked in high school and always say how much they miss it are probably losers now lol

hellgirlfiona

Nov 11, 2019, 8:39 pm Reply

it was just was just one day but i also did it. my two best friends in my class were not in school on this day and i was in an argument with the other girls in my class so i thought let's go to the bathroom and eat there

지민이바보

Nov 11, 2019, 8:53 pm Reply

I saw this video a while ago and I got this on my recommendations again.

Since the beginning of this semester, it became my reality… Lol, my friends dumped me 😂

Humungus Jewish walrus

Nov 11, 2019, 9:29 pm Reply

In my school the toilets is sometimes locked and I'm like…,
OH SHIT!!!!

Elisa Sierra

Nov 11, 2019, 9:39 pm Reply

How do you sit on the toilet seat with clothes on let alone eat when it smells

Alghaliya Alby

Nov 11, 2019, 9:51 pm Reply

Why are all the bathrooms in schools all like that

fire

Nov 11, 2019, 9:53 pm Reply

nasty ass

Smile More

Nov 11, 2019, 10:18 pm Reply

Same

Alice Dos Santos

Nov 11, 2019, 10:21 pm Reply

i just came here in the comments to see if there is someone saying like “HEY I REMEMBER YOU FROM SCHOOL, I ALWAYS WANTED TO TALK TO YOU BUT YOU WERE SO QUITE AND I WAS EMBARRASSED”

it would be rly cute lmao

Hannah Leonie

Nov 11, 2019, 10:57 pm Reply

Why don’t people just sit alone somewhere in the cafeteria or the library or somewhere else in the school and be on your phone, read or whatever. Like why would you eat in the bathroom?

Raina Laken

Nov 11, 2019, 12:01 am Reply

she’s so pretty omg

J-hoppa ,

Nov 11, 2019, 12:27 am Reply

No one eats in the bathroom at my school…

M a y

Nov 11, 2019, 1:54 am Reply

I used to do this on middle school. 🙂

K Y E

Nov 11, 2019, 2:23 am Reply

Such a good video, but my slightly germaphobic ass is crying.

Sydney Fiona

Nov 11, 2019, 2:33 am Reply

didn’t people vape in their tho

Carmen Reed

Nov 11, 2019, 3:54 am Reply

I'm just like you used to be I have a friend group but the problem with me is that I'm one out of a good 8 african american kids and I hate confrontations and people always stare at me some type of way I just dont like talking much and idk why i just dont feel comfortable

Lizeth’s life

Nov 11, 2019, 3:55 am Reply

Well guess what I can’t eat in my bathroom during lunch people be juuling all day long

It’s not cuul
To juul
In schuul

Jenny

Nov 11, 2019, 4:18 am Reply

This is what real happening to me right now. Still in high school and I eat my lunch bathroom bc I don’t have any friends…

M G

Nov 11, 2019, 6:10 am Reply

This was me in high school(I graduated in June)I hated the lunch room and ate in the bathroom. My social anxiety was very bad. I never went into bigger stalls unless I went with a friend Bc that’s where ppl wanna go to most. When there was fire drills I used to stand on the toilets so nobody could see my legs, and I used to have a concert in the bathroom as if I was a singer 😂. The bathroom stall was my safe zone for me.

Cactaii.Cuddlez

Nov 11, 2019, 7:53 am Reply

🔥💯fire mukbang💯🔥™️

baby bun

Nov 11, 2019, 8:22 am Reply

r/imnotlikeothergirls

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